Hellos to my Childhood...I love my childhood like everyone does..I grow up in a small city looking at the skies all around..At that time I wished to touch the sky...I used to ride on small cycle to the nearby railway station and used to watch the train come and go..How can I forget those days...When I used to sit on bench filled with love of respect and I remember that was of green color..with small ants moving on it..and some dust on it..used to clean that with my hand..and sit on it...and used to see the back how much dust is sticking at my back...used to taste the sand...looked very tasty at that time...used to go the city park with my beloved ones...and I remember those days jumping on the grass .... used to feel I got my world in my small hands...We would take out the grass and used to throw at each other...used to run on grass dancing and sometimes getting scar on hands and legs..Mom used to teach me "Beta don't go there, Ghosts live there"hehe....I feel like this when i think of those moments..Mom used to make me ready with small fairy tale like clothes of pink color and sometimes of green color..small clips of dreams used to be on my hair..felt like no one is like my mom..Oh Mom I love you for these moments...I love you dearest Mom...I hope everyone is blessed with Mother like you..You are God for me my dearest mother..I remember of Dad taking me out on rehri for the Icecream...and fighting with my brother and small sister to get the bigger one...hehe..hehe..those moments are awesome..Dad used to say"Beta you are eldest of these all" You should understand ...Oh dearest Dad I love you for all that you have given my...You have been my inspiration of my life..Thanks for being there...I hope you get all the things you need in your life...I remember follwing the butter flies and, helicopters(Dragon flies), Jugnu...haha..was awesome time...used to capture and look them how they fly....now i feel sorry for them as I used to kill them sometime...Used to Go to the temple and watch the glowing fishes in the sarovar..My internal wanted to sit on them and swim with them..hehehe...I remember those prestigeous moments trying to touch the fish so that I can catch that fish...I wanted to fly like plane..wanted at the top the rainbow...so that I can slide down from Heavens to earth...Watching the world from top of the rainbow..watchin Mom and Dad working in the home..sayin Hello to them...Oh my dear God Bless them all with love of Happiness....Hope they get all the colors of life like rainbow has...I remember watching Dad flying kites....wanted to flew with them...wanted to touch the sky with my small hands...wanted to cut the other kites around me..Used to fly kites in balcony at my room...My Dad used to say you are my big Boy not Girl....I used to feel proud on that statement...used to open up all the gadgets to see what is in them...and see how they work..but after I used to open them..Nothing used to work...hehehe...Those lovely moments Oh God....How can I explain them...How can I explain them...Oh My love of Love...Please take me back to my childhood...where I used to run behind the ball,butterflies,Grasshoppers,rainbows...rain drops...shadow of mine..hehe..Oh my Oh my...I can never forget it...loved every moment...I am here now..watching the same world with my own eyes...standing at the roof where I wanted to be once..I am at that place...I have got everything I wanted...Thanks to everyone around me..Thanks again..I feel little drops in my eyes when I think these precious moments... O Love of God ... I want to be with them forever...But I know I know it is not possible...But God has given me the power of remembrance through which I can remember all the things and I have the power of getting into the things I wanted to be in.......Last lines of my childhood " I cannot forget sitting with my beloved Grannie sitting on Green bench and learning tables of love from her....used to sit hours and hours....How can I forget these precious moments...I hope they remain alive with me till I live..." Bless you my dear Grannie for giving me these memories....I am still alive, gathering some memories for the future.....I hope I get the love out of it.....Oh God Bless everyone......
I don't know what "Cute Girl means"..I used to think about her in my dreams.. She really came alive in my feelings few years back..She was wearing white clothes looking like an angel..Came from the heavens above..Her eyes had a flashy look which remembers me of the light reflecting in virgin water lake in great Mountains..She claps as if the trees are clapping there leaves as she is welcoming someone from deep down heart. I don't know who she is..She lives in deep down in my heart..When she comes out from my heart. She looks like a rainbow colors dancing down from the heavens to earth..I don't know where she lives..whether she lives in my heart or some where in heavens...Once I asked her the same question."Where do you live?" She replied"I come from the deep down skies of heart you have dear one..I live within you..You have to find yourself to find me.."Do you think you can find me?"She asked me.I replied"I don't know dear" Whether I will be able to find you out or not. She said" I am with you always, living nearby you, around you, In you, In your eyes,In your heart beat, I live in every nerve of your body..I thought that When I first started thinking of you it looked impossible to me that whether I would be able to find you or not..I think I have found you now..Because you are with me now..She replied"I don't think so, I am with you dear Heart...I am just an imagination for you...You still have to find me...I am near you dear one"..My dear Girl..Will I be able to find you dear one....I think I have found you dear one..You are right you are everywhere..You are in me...You are my eyes through which I look...You are my senses..You are my lips through which I speak..You are my in mind through which I think..You are my breath dear one through which I am alive in front of you..You are my heart and everything..I have found you dear one..You are Nature..You are Mother Nature..You are Mother Nature..You live in me like a Cute Girl...That I was wondering who you are...Why your actions remember me of Nature...You are everywhere....I have found you....I pray to you to live in everyone's Heart..Please live..Everyone is forgetting the Humanity..What Humanity is all about..Please teach them..Please enlighten them with your love..which will guide them through there path of life..Make them feel like water which flows and makes it's own way...Oh! Cute Little Nature what should I call you..A Mother..A brother..A Friend..or something else I don't know what I should call you.. I just know that I have internal relationship with you...I don't know what that relationship is...But soon I will come to know about it..I just wanna say thank to you dear one...I don't even have that much power to say thanks to you ... As you yourself full of powers..Which drives this world..That I cannot guess...Hope you live with everyone and give your love to everyone...You have enlightened me a lot & you are still bringing light into me..I am still learning..Please do it for others also...Help My dear Girl..Help! Help! Humanity...Oh Cute Girl..I can imagine How lovely you are....You are meant for peace...Give peace..You are everything for me and Please be the same for others also....LOVE them Guide them dear..Love them dear one...Love them...That is what my internal love says to you....I know you will be there to help them...I know you will be....OH MOTHER NATURE BLESS EVERYONE....
You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.
Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.
You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.
Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.
I had a thought about a women sitting in bus, I was thinking about her, she was wearing white clothes, looked like without everything, without world, without make up. Such a gentle face with few lines of time that has passed on her was on her face. Had deep black eyes looking all around, looked like had some fear in her eyes, may be the time that had passed had left some scars in her life, she looked as if she has lost her beloved, as she was white, and looking all around with fear who is going to protect her now with tear in her eye, she thinks of her old days, how I am going to live in this world dear one, without u I am nothing, you were my inspiration..When u were there I had air in my body but now it seems I am just living with no life in it, I am now dry leaf who is getting dry day by day without sun ray, sun is you, who used to give life 2 me, my eyes are always at door's step that u will come some day and take me with u, without u I am just like hollow wood, I remember old days when u used to kiss me, used to feel like heavens, who is going to kiss me now, you used to bring ear rings, but who is going to put them in my ears now. For whom I should dance, for whom I should wear clothes, for whom I should do makeup, for whom I should breath now, even it's getting harder for me to breath now, every single breath was for u and it will always be for u dear one, you used to play with my hair how I can forget that, the ears I have they also gone some vacant, through them I used to hear Your voice, what about my eyes dear one, you don't think of them now, through these eyes u lived in my heart, the tears of happiness that used to come after seeing u my darling, in those eyes there is no tear now, because they have dried because of fear, as u went away from me my dear, I don' know how I am going to live my life dear, because u were my all life dear, my body is just like an old ruin now, where nobody lives having just a old wind blowing thru the ruin and old time that still lives in that ruin that holds your face, I will not forget u, Your love, Your care, your happiness, Your pain 4 me, Your smile, Your inspiration, Your motivation, I still don't know how I am going to live my life, but I will still live with image that u have given me in my heart, I just love u love u love u and just love u that is what my body particle say, they will say forever....Forever my dear, I still love u my darling ...Hope we meet somewhere in next world... I still say I just.........
