Wednesday, May 25, 2016

A Rain With Face


                                                                 
                                                                       
 A Rain With Face is something about when Rain comes with some feeling of love & you do not know, only heart with soul can understand. It is just like kissing face to face with each other, when it touches you on your skin, on your lips. It is a feeling of astonishment when it touches you, a feeling of loveliness that once it passes through. Each and every moment you enjoy like a small child. It is a feeling like a kid playing in the rain with face full of happiness. No one can judge the happiness of other person just by looking at them, they should be able to see as this is the happiness of internal soul which takes you where you want to go which is internal, mystical journey of past life you have lived.

Love, Hatred, they just go away when you kiss the face of Rain. It just takes away all the sorrows, cries, lies and other things which should not be meant to be there inside your black, dark place inside some where your small part of heart, where fear, negativity lives.

I was on the roof top of my house, standing, thinking, going past in my years of silence which I have gone through in my life till now and was just looking at the black sky, watching gray clouds changing faces from here and there, completely changing to black after sometime. It was completely silence at that time, even you can hear the small birds chirping which are impossible to hear that time, streets which are normally flooded with horns of rickshaws, cars and bikes, Today it was silent like nobody was there, just silence before storm. I was deep into my thoughts, just watching those clouds changing shapes and which took me deep into my thoughts and allowed me to think how my life has changed like these clouds sometimes black and sometimes white  and sometimes completely blank. The things which I had forgot in my life, the shapes of these clouds made me think of my past life. Playing with rain, playing with tires, playing with birds, playing with stray dogs which I named as "Dabbu". A dog with big brown eyes, deep inside those brown was loyalty filled with love. Always stayed with whenever I used to go anywhere. So many things I went through by this small passage of time till the time wind Started blowing.

Within a small time frame of how I went through my whole memory lane. It was there only for few minutes and I came into consciousness when I was kissed by one of the droplets of Rain on my face. Dry leaves of Guava tree which were lying on the roof started moving in circles as it looked like they are celebrating the entrance of first rain of life as it will help the new leafs to grow. This Guava tree stands tall just at the back of our House, giving beautiful Guava fruit red from inside. I always hear some kind of birds singing here and there on it. On the day of rain it was completely different, these new leafs were not singing, at this time there were old dry leaves which were singing all the way for the first rain.  It has beautiful branches which always touches the roof of it and sometimes those old leaves always block the drainage pipe which is helpful in draining rain water from roof and one corner of the roof starts leaking from outside and then we go on the roof to clear the drainage pipe. Getting back, all of sudden few more drops faces kissed me on my lips it felt just like your lover kissing you and hugging you for the first time. Small sensations of love went through my whole body, which was spiritual and love for the others.

It started raining and also with some strong winds, whole thunderstorm came into complete act. Saw some of the pigeons trying to move against the wind, might be they are trying to reach kids, trying to feed them, might be they are going to eat some food which they know where it is. All kind of thoughts were hovering and covering like cloud my whole mind. Some thoughts were black and some were white which I went through at that point of time. Sound of the wind was like music to my ears which is like hoovering around you all the time and taking you in the life of your past. It started raining heavily it was time me stand beneath the roof, however I was not able to as Beloved of yours is coming down to meet after so many years, it was feeling of  which I was able to think of it. I was completely wet in the rain. Like tears coming out my eyes after meeting my beloved and it was all that moment which I will always remember, that sensation going through your soul and touches you from within and you just feel that, you cannot be taken away from me my soul bleeds, which is not possible. Beloved people always go away, and it is just a matter of time they come back.

Rain was in full flow and after sometime it just stopped slowly as it started, whole rain was an experience of Passion, Love, Peace, Meditation and experience of whole life for few moments. I hope the pigeons which were struggling might have reached there destinations. It was normal again, whole street again lit up with horns of cars, rickshaws, voices of kids playing out side. A new thing which was added later was whispering noise of some crickets insects on Guava tree. They kept singing whole night and with that music, I felt like a child again, slipped into my memories of childhood again. Good Night!